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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 02:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

It was going to be , some day.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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I will be 64.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do our deceased do not protect us from other bad spirits?

One cannot live in the past .

My life is so biszare .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She found it foreign!.

What is one fantasy you have never told anyone about but really want to do?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why do so many autistic adults deal with self-hatred?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ive learnt so much.

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Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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He knew the spot.

My family never makes their pension either.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She loved him until the end.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

What did i know ?

So, i spoilt her more .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Especially a lifetime of it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I don,t even have a pension.

So whats the point in blame.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I waited trembling.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I never cut or harmed myself..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Im still living with it.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Why did i forgive my father ?

She was in good health!

When she asked me how she looked .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But, we were locked up after school.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I have no regrets .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I write beautiful poetry .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But it wasn’t much.

And i lived it daily.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I was very sick at this time too.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Comes on , in middle age.

Put me off passion for life!!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

All the time i was locked up.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She wouldn,t have been !

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She married twice! .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was 9 years of age.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

This is soul school!.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We all went to grammer schools

I said to her

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

We were not on the streets..

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I was scared of men, in general

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Would this be the day?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Who then, do I blame.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I think the readers, may guess!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.